White Flag

To Lai Lai-

It is indeed, a sweet start to a bitter end.

I give up.

I'll Be

In a moment of intensely emotional deposition, I sat down and spilled my heart into an entry here. So much so that I could feel the week's worth of burgeoning hurt, angst, heartache and frustrations rising up, like bile in the throat. Writing that entry was so cleansing and deeply personal, it felt like I shoved a hand down my throat to fling all that I've been feeling and thinking onto the screen. Much to my embarrassment, I ended the entry in tears. I decided to save it as a draft because that post is way too intimate and personal for public reading. But it felt really, really refreshing, and I feel lighter now.

The only thing that made me happy this week : Shahril! called me from wherever he was in the world and we had a good good gooooood catching up. He's coming back for a month around middle October and I seriously can't wait to see him.

It's been so long since I had encountered feelings and emotions like these that amusingly, I've forgotten what and how I'm supposed to react. Apparently I've forgotten how sharp it hurts sometimes too, at night.

Belting out sunlight shimmering <3

So she said what's the problem baby,
what's the problem I don't know
well maybe I'm in love,
think about it everytime I think about it
can't stop thinkin' bout it.

P & L: I love both you girls long long time, thanks for being there for me in the dead of the night.

I'm sneaking this post from Vonne's laptop over at Republic Poly as I overlook her Lifesaving training going on in the pool right now. I hope she doesn't kamikazie from one end of the pool to another wayward end without any ounce of direction again. The last time she did it, she blamed it on the lack of lights. (Excuses)

The view from my seat is rather winning. I can see the tanned boys streaking across the pool and the muscled ones scaling up the rock wall in the adventure course further away.

(I secretly cannot wait for XW's party this weekend because although it's the month of Ramadan, you-know-who will be going! MAJORRR. :) )

Tomorrow's Lit paper and I only got myself rather thoroughly accquainted with Raju, I need to go spend some time with the Duchess now. Ciao.

Two more days!

How much longer will it take to cure this
just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love
makes me wanna turn around and face me bt I don't know nothing 'bout love...

Home Alone I

My parents are jetting off to good ol' Bangkok (read: second home) for four days, and for the first time, without my brother and I in tow.

My father: ectastic because he can finally visit Buddhist temples and random places which he could never in the past because we were supremely disinterested and expressively whiny about it.
My mother : glum because she lost her best shopping partner.

My brother: secretly excited because he gets unlimited freedom, which is a tad scary if you think what four days of post-exams liberation without parental presence can do to a sixteen-year-old boy, considering my parents are taking the internet access cable along with them, hence no WarCraft to ground him at home.

Sadly, it makes little difference to me because I am still in the midst of Prelims II and what else can I do but study? The worst I can do is study till very late hours, but still, I'm studying.

Pffah, pathetic.

But I hope they have a safe flight and a satisfactory time.

You got to try this...

The Impossible Quiz

I got this off from WeiMing and I cannot believe its sheer entertainment value.

With the combined forces of me and my brother and a whole tub of Haagen Dazs, we only managed until Qn.50 before it got us slumping on the table and moaning defeat.

It takes a hell lot out of you but damn, it's so addictive! (:

Attempt only when you've absolutely nothing else of importance to do.

She made my day

You know you've the bestestEST Bestf anywhere around when you've been moody and in a depressed funk of late, and she surprised you by cabbing down to your place at midnight with a box of homemade cookies baked by the love herself, and gives you the kind of hug that makes you feel infinitely better, at least for the moment.

Nothing works like chocolate comfort and the Bestf's love.

Shouting out love from the centre of the world

I ain't got no Visa
I ain't got no Red American Express
We can't go nowhere exotic
It don't matter 'cause I'm the one that loves you best

Cedele with bestf was absolute therapy. It felt so fucking good just to spend time with her again, I have no grace in trying to express my happiness. I'm just glad we're throughly updated on each others' lives. Damn, nothing comes close to the feel-good I get from yakking with her, seriously. Love from the bottom of my <3

And,

We, or rather, bestf accompanied me down to Yishun to surprise Lisda at her birthday dinner with her secondary schoolmates. The place was so remote and tucked away that the cab driver had difficulty trying to locate it. Fortunately, Khairyn spotted us in the cab zooming past and she called me. Yeah, don't ask me how she managed to recognize me in a passing cab but she did, thankfully. The birthday girl was satisfactorily surprised by me, so all was worth it.


Just a few, no, A LOT of her favorite things from all over SG. After she is through consuming them, I am going to buy her a weighing scale. (HAHAHA) So for the 123456789th time, Happy 18th Lis. Enjoy the hamper with generosity aye? It was made with much love, brain-wrecking, and exorbitant MRT fees.

Not feeling very cheerful at the moment, it's been a quite some time since I felt this way at night.
(I don't know what is it you want from me, can you please tell me what do you actually want? Goddamn.)
EMO shit manzxzxzx.

Good night, people.

Meme III

The rules are as follows:

If you are tagged, you need to write an entry related to the meme. At the end of your entry you just need to tag as many person as you like. You will then leave a comment in their blog to let them know they have been tagged.

Please copy and paste this rule somewhere in your entry.

1. A person is only as good as what he/she is to you when you're fat/ugly/broke/controversial.

2. Friendship is always about unconditional acceptance and comfortable silences.

3. To love is to invest throughly and entirely, even when the stock prices might free-fall at any given time.

4. Money makes me broke, ironically.

5. I miss MOS Burger, green-skittles-on-the-MRT-bench, exchanging-knowing-looks-and-bursting-into-giggles secondary school everydays with bestf.

6. My way of saying I care is never as eloquent as the words I say to those I don't.

7. I try to spread love and happiness by doing a little here and there every day.

8. Pick the flowers if you have someone you love enough to give it to.

9. To love someone is hell......and heaven concomitantly.

10. Beauty is money.

11. When I was thirteen, what I remember the most was my disastrous individual school photo that nobody have ever seen, fortunately.

12. When I was twenty one, I remember I don't know yet but I sure as hell won't forget it when it's over.

13. I am most happy when I get something or someone to look forward to.

14. Nothing makes me happier than unexpected sweet little gestures and actions from the people that matter.

15. If I can change one thing, I will change the direct relationship between the amount we consume and the weight we put on into an inverse one.

16. If smiles were expensive then I think I would be effing poor.

17. Wouldn't it be nice if we could stay encapsulated at 18 forever?

18. If you want to be accepted then you have to first accept yourself.

19. Money is not everything but it sure as hell can buy me most of it.

20. The most touching moments I have experienced is when you waited for me at the bridge in the park at 11pm and sang me that special song.

21. I smile when I think about November 16th and all the plans we have after that.

22. When I am happy, I grin like a moron...and I can't stop.

23. If only I don't have to care about the future, then i can be living life the way I want to live right now.

24. The best thing I did yesterday was to the 3 hours long chat into the wee morning hour with bestf.

25. If I ever write a book, I will give it this title, Banned and controversial. (Reverse psychology works yo.)

26. One thing I must do before I die is to have the most kick-ass marriage to the the man who can still give me butterflies in my stomach even after our 50th Anniversary.

27. Doing this meme, I am putting off reality for awhile.


P.S Today was wonderfully spent. (: