What Could've Been (and never will be)

For some abysmally stupid reason, I found PJC's netball blog and randomly clicked on the personal blogs of the players, only to read over and over again, in different versions, that joyous high they experienced when they won us by 3 points.

How they shed tears, and how they truly felt like a team at that very moment. And how they felt that all their grueling trainings were worth it for that moment when the umpire blew her whistle. How they jumped, and how they screamed. How they won IJC even though they were trailing initially.

And how all that could've been written by us instead, by me, Merelda, Sling, Rhonda, and Siying, in our blogs instead of theirs. But no, three points, three fucking points.

Funny, I just can't bring myself to share their joy.