One of those

1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
And there you have it.
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How am I feeling today? Wild Thing - Van Halen (Not particularly, actually. I feel frumpy)

Will I get far in life? Gifts And Curses - Yellowcard

How do my friends see me? My Paper Heart - All American Rejects ( Am I really? )

Where will I get married? Landing In London - 3 Doors Down ( WELL WELL WELL. )

What is my best friend's theme song? I Think We're Alone Now - The Click 5 ( Well, we DO have very little time to get together...)

What is the story of my life? Gimme That (Los Rompe Discotekas) - Chris Brown Feat hector El father

What is/was high school like? Sophomore Slump Or Comeback Of the Year - Fallour Boy ( Now this is getting a bit eerie. The itunes seems to be answering the question. And i guess its really either one or the other. Thankfully, its not the former. )

How can I get ahead in life? Poster Girl - Backstreet Boys

What is the best thing about me? Lala - Ashlee Simpson ( I certainly hope the answer does not refer to the lyrics of this song.)

What is today going to be like? Because Of You - kelly Clarkson

What is in store for this weekend? Our Lives - The Calling ( Well, that was very helpful.)

What song describes my parent(s)? Life Of A Salesman - Yellowcard (Thats sad.)

To describe my grandparents? Its Like that - Mariah Carey Feat JD. & Fatman Scoop

How is my life going? Get Up - Ciara Feat Chamillionaire ( I'm not THAT lazy..)

How does the world see me? Right Where You Want Me - Jesse Mccartney (Laughs.)

Will I have a happy life? Somewhere only we know - Keane

What do my friends really think of me? I promise - Stacie Orrico ( eh? )

Do people secretly lust after me? Crazy - Simple Plan ( Well THAT certainly lifted my ego heaps. )

How can I make myself happy? Obviously - Mcfly

What should I do with my life? Mixtape - Butch Walker

Will I ever have children? Whenever, Wherever - Shakira ( You know that really DOESNT SOUND GOOD. o_0 )

I had fun, laughing at some of the most ridiculous answers, and some almost creepily true answers. Try it. (:

Self-Penned

The relentless wind whipped her skirt around her bony knees, the bitter cold biting into her bones. Almost oblivious, she tottered over the sharp rocks into the sand. Clutching a handful of green M&Ms candies in one fist, her eyes seeking for a silhoutte in the distance. She saw none. She craned her neck, as best as she could, ignoring the stings the sand made in her eyes, searching, seeking, for him, his promised presence.

She was still alone on the lonely stretch of beach.

The waves crashed against the shore, the water crashing against the rocky cliffs. Crashing and breaking, just like the hope in her heart.

He said he would be here. He promised her a better future when he come for her. He vowed to bring her to England, where he spoke of sunshine, lemonade stores and a proper home with a pink room for herself. He told her about the friends she will have, the dresses she will look so pretty in, the dolls that will accompany her through her nightmares.

He lied.

The M&Ms melted in her clenched fist. She flung the candies away, into the roaring waves. She wiped away the tears on her face, not realising the green smears she's leaving on her cheeks. Or not caring.

She turned and walked away slowly. The broken spirit of a little girl, the sparkle gone from her eyes, the bounce lost in her steps. A mess of green smears and salty tears, the torn tunic hanging loosely on her thin frame.

Her isolation almost palphable.

Its The Mother Swing.

Just one of those little somethings you come across when you're bored and random on the internet. I decided to share.

Things My Mother Taught Me
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My mother taught me TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE
"If you're going kill each other, do it outside - I just finished cleaning!"

My mother taught me RELIGION
"You better pray that will come out of the carpet."

My mother taught me about TIME TRAVEL
"If you don't straighten up, I'm going to knock you into the middle of next week!"

My mother taught me LOGIC
"Because I said so, that's why."

My mother taught me FORESIGHT
"Make sure you wear clean underwear, in case you're in an accident."

My mother taught me IRONY
"Keep laughing and I'll give you something to cry about."

My mother taught me about the science of OSMOSIS
"Shut your mouth and eat your supper!"

My mother taught me about CONTORTIONISM
"Will you look at the dirt on the back of your neck!"

My mother taught me about STAMINA
"You'll sit there 'til all that spinach is finished."

My mother taught me about WEATHER
"It looks as if a tornado swept through your room."

My mother taught me how to solve PHYSICS PROBLEMS
"If I yelled because I saw a meteor coming toward you; would you listen then?"

My mother taught me about HYPOCRISY
"If I've told you once, I've told you a million times - Don't Exaggerate!!!"

My mother taught me THE CIRCLE OF LIFE
"I brought you into this world, and I can take you out."

My mother taught me about BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION
"Stop acting like your father!"

My mother taught me about ENVY
"There are millions of less fortunate children in this world who don't have wonderful parents like you do!"

Airing my dirty linens.

I realised I've forgotten that tale-dujour is public and my dirty linens are for the world to see, which is not necessarily a good thing because some people which I cannot stomach actually frequents my blog and will be able to read into my personal life. Of course not much of it is truly personal, it was only the previous entry which gave you a glimpse of my emotions, which is not something i'm truly comfortable with. After all, a girl has to retain some of her mystery. (:

But sooner or later, when I realise I need to expose more of me into tale-dujour, I might have to set a password lock in place. But the mere thought of doing that and informing the necessary people of the password just wears me out. So its really down to either no more personal posts, or more but less readership. And right now, I realised I don't care much of how many people actually reads this thing. It has become more of a tissue/punching bag/diary for me recently. And judging from the way things are going, if I dont vent, I doubt I would be able to retain any sense of sanity.

And really, there are just SOME despicable people whom I have zero tolerance for. And it makes me want to hurl knowing that THEY were able to look into the more vulnerable side of me. The mere thought was thoroughly sickening. Urghs. Lys, you should know to whom I'm referring to. Imagine that obnoxious demeanour and bloody insolent smile. The very epitome of annoying, the very definition of "qian-bian"(smack-worthy). And i shall not elaborate more, because you-know-who might be reading this at this very moment. (:

So people, look out for screen lock anytime soon. If I like you, you will get the password. Toodles for now, darling.

To YOU

Pre-script: Maybe I should insert a tagbox, because I know for a fact that many of you sneaky wrenches do actually frequent this place, but it seems excruciatingly hard for you to make me feel loved, or you can't find it.
So for the people who genuinely can't find it, click on the "stark" at the bottom of every entry and stop making excuses.
And for those lazy incurables; once in a while, it wont hurt.


rant rant rant.
I need to let it out, before it eats me up inside.

Your words tore me up, not a quick rip, but a slow shedding, bit by angonizing bit. I'm beyond hurt. I'm beyond fury. I'm beyond indignation. I'm really really disappointed. So very disappointed.

"Nobody is gonna care whether you're there or not."
You think WE don't care? You think it gives us joy to see you suffering? Is that what you really think? Yes, you see us laughing, having fun. So you think it doesnt matter whether you're there or not. But did you EVER see us, talking, so so frustrated, so HURT, always pondering, why are you ignoring us? JUST US. Its ALWAYS us. Not Flora, not Eileen. What have we done to deserve your cold-shoulder? Did you ever think how much that hurt us? Did we do something so terrible? You didnt see this side, cuz you're never there. We saved you a seat in Math, like we ALWAYS do. Yet you chose to sit some place else. You didn't wait for us aftr lessons, always going off first. Tell me, put yourself in our shoes, what would you have done? And the WORST thing is, I HAVE NO FUCKING IDEA WHAT TRIGGERED THIS INCIDENT.

Do you KNOW how helpless I felt? I kept thinking and thinking, did I do something wrong? Did I NOT do something? Do you know that feeling of utter helplessness, when you so BADLY wanted to rectify the situation to get things back to the way they were and not beeing able to do it because I have no bloody clue on WHAT made you so angry with us in the first place. And YOU didnt want to enlighten us either, all you kept saying was, you shouldnt bother, it doesnt matter now, its nothing. FUCK IT, it cant be nothing. STOP saying its NOTHING. WHY DOES EVERYONE LOVE TO SAY SOMETHING IS NOTHING AND JUST MAKE THE SITUATION WORSE?

And you tell us we shouldnt bother? And why in God's name shouldnt we bother? We were SUCH GOOD FRIENDS, you have no idea how much you guys mean to me. And here you are, telling me I shouldnt bother. I wanted to help so badly, but no, I neednt bother. WHY WHY WHY? Friends are supposed to HELP each other, be open, be honest.

WHATS WITH ALL THE SMOKE AND MIRRORS, LIES AND HALF-TRUTHS?

Why can't we go back to normal? WHY DAMMIT. I miss those times when we hung out together at cafe galilee, pizza ht or wherever. Laughing at other people, laughing at ourselves. Having such a damned good time. I miss those times we confide in each other, and the MSN conversations. The FOUR of us. So tightly knitted. BUT WHY IS EVERYTHING FALLING APART NOW?

I tried talking to you on Monday, I got snubbed twice, three times. It bruised my ego, and hurt my pride. But because you're worth it, I didnt care. And I thought everything was alright, i was so happy when you joined us for lunch, and us saying that we will be coming back to Cavana every day of the week. Wednesday was great, you crapped with me throughout Math tutorial, singing children songs and disney melodies.

Then on thursday, it all snapped.

We lost the match, I was in a shitty mood. And I realised, you started ignoring us again. How many blows do you think I can take? How many blows are you going to deal me? We didnt ignore you, we saved you a seat. You didnt take it. You went off without waiting for us. What are we suppposed to do, CAN YOU PLEASE TELL ME. You snubbed me on Monday when I tried mending ties, do you think I have enough ego to take it again?

Once bitten, twice shy.

Regardless, we tried again on Friday. Oh god, can't you SEE? How many many times have we approach you FIRST? How many times have we made the first move? Do you think if you were somebody insignifcant or not of importance to me, I would suffer so many beatings to my pride? Get this straight, I guard my pride obsessively. Nobody messes with it. THIS alone should tell you your worth. Did you get it, my dear dear friend?

It all seemed better, and I went home with a lighter heart. I thought maybe everything can go back to normal now. It might take some time, yes but I was willing to wait it out. Wait for things to thaw between you and A. It will, that I was certain, it just needed some time for both parties.

But when I got home, L told me about what you said and it shattered everything in me.

WHY DAMMIT WHY.

Why cant things go back to normal? IF there's a will, there's a way. Time heals all wounds. I long for the past. Why cant we? I put in so much, and yet here you are, telling me things can never be the same again. DID YOU EVEN FUCKING TRY?

Everything's falling apart now. I have no idea what's the next step, because I have done everything I could, and yet you shot down all hopes with YOUR convictions. You shot down my efforts and wasted my emotions. But did you even TRY?

"I dislike school now, because the only reason why I enjoy attending school is gone."
You can enjoy school again and you know it. It all lies within you now, because God knows I've tried my best. And I'm sorry, but I'm on the edge of breaking down already. I wish I can be stronger and just plough on, and just keep on trying, but I dont think I can withstand it, if with my every try, comes a blow from you. I'm only hanging by a thread now, and it might just snap any moment.

I'm sorry if this entry has offended you in any way, or you misunderstood some of my points. But the truth is, I'm too tired to care. I just hope you get this the right way, and that I care. So much that it hurts. And I still do. I hope this wakes you up in someway or clear your misgivings about us. Because you have no idea how much I want things to be back to the way before. And if you do, you know what to do.

The ball's in your court now.

P.S I'm sorry if anyone of you got bored of this emo shit. But this is important to me and this entry is really just for him.

Self-penned

Their taunts did cut deep
and their indifference seeps
through the armour she had against
thougtless blurts that evoke pains

She wanted to be a tad more strong
no longer so vulnerable among
the lies that spin this tainted earth
so sparse in laughter and guiless mirth

So now the jaded eyes set in
the demeanour and practised preen
a roll of the eyes and flick of the hair
got all the guys swooping over there

She was now the head queen bee
she should be savouring happily
this intoxicating sensation
of utter undisputed dominance

But when the party is over and the door is closed
when she hangs up her smile and her soles
an inexplicable sadness will take over
and she always wondered what was she doing here


Its been a long time since I did poems too. Be nice.

Another one

Favourites
Colour: Lime green, fire-engine red, and pastel yellow.
Food: Anything with cheese or chocolate.
Song: A range, excluding techno and heavy metal.
Day of the week: Fridays, naturally.

Current
Mood: Listless
Taste: Watermelons and peppermints.
Clothes: Shorts and a ratty oversized tee.
Desktop: 0623A
Toenail: Whatever the natural colour is supposed to be.
Surroundings: Peaceful. The sound of piano from the speakers and the steady rhythm of the rain against my window. Made me feel better too.
Thoughts: Bed looks tempting.

First
Bestfriend: Karen
Crush: My primary 4 teacher. He teaches P.E and had a sense of humour. All the girls were infatuated by him and he knows it too.
Lie: Can't remember. But it was something regarding my mother's birthday gift and consipracy with dad.
Music: Disney.

Last
Cigarrette: Never smoked.
Drink: You mean alcoholic or non-alcoholic? Alcoholic : White wine Non-alcoholic : Water
Car ride: I forgot when, but it was a cab.
Crush: Captain Jack Sparrow
Phone call: This morning, to Flora.
CD played: A long time ago. I think it was Yellowcard.

Have u ever
Dated your bestfriend: Yes
Broken the law: Yes
Been arrested: No
Skinny-dipped: No
Have u been on TV: Yes, to my embarassment.
Kissed someone you don't know: No.

5 things i am wearing: Shorts, shirt, glasses, hairband, socks(cold).
4 things i have done today: Went to school. Won a match. Hurt my knee. Ate a banana.
3 things i can hear rite now: The rain, piano and the tapping of keys.
1 thing i did when i am bored : Sing.

5 people to tag
Carolyn.
Eileen.
Diana.
Khairyn.
WeiMing